So let me start by saying things are... good. Great on some fronts, ok on others, and then of course terrible in a few others. I think that balances out to being pretty ok. ;-)
Work continues to challenge my patience but that ship keeps moving forward without much happening outside the norm but there are some days where I just want to walk away and go back to being my own boss. Sometimes being in charge of more than a dozen other people can wear on you when shit rolls downhill. But that won't be changing anytime soon and as I have always said;
Speaking of things I cannot change, I was lucky enough to get a continuance on my custody trial for my son Damien with NO DATE. That means the courts are going to sit back and wait for us to finish with mediation. I think that is mostly good news IF mediation goes as well as I hope. It has been a great weight on my shoulders for so long... not just the fact I have only seen my son a half dozen times in his 4 years of life but also the volatility of it all. I have always thrived on routine and knowing what to expect. Now this is in the air I don't know how it will affect my life... my schedule... my budget? I just want some resolution so I know when I can see my son again... Only once in the last 4 months is not ok with me...
I titled this post "Feeling Off" because I am... and I don't know why. I am relatively in touch with my being and this feels unusual... I feel like my head is in a thick fog, lethargic, nausea comes in waves... I am pawning it off on stress or being somehow overly exhausted but truly I wonder and have a slight concern. Maybe I am just overwhelmed with the fact I am in a Tax Audit where they are claiming my business owes an extra 13,000 in taxes?? Or this custody case that has been drug on forever... or numbers being down at work... or being a single father with only a little help from Mikala's mom? Or being madly in love and in a fast moving relationship...?
I don't know but I know that I am happy and today has been an ok day... yesterday was an ok day and tomorrow is going to be a GREAT day... it will be FRIDAY! ;-) Maybe I just need to relax...
Well back to work! And here is to another OK day. Happy Thursday.
~Michael
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