Good evening potential readers... just wanting to highlight what could be an important event in my life...Perhaps I should bite my tongue but tonight felt to be a turning point in what has been a seemingly mundane existence. I took Mikala on a play date with an old high school friend I have 'crushed' on for as long as I can remember knowing of her. Much to my surprise the feeling I have had about her all this time may have turned out to be true. It has been a long time while I have made a few failed and maybe weak attempts to catch her eye in the past. To no avail until now somehow against all odds I was invited to her home to visit...
We flirted some while the kids played but I felt instantly enamored by the twinkle in her green eyes when she smiled. I find her to be a gorgeous women but also maternal, funny, responsible, kind and caring... plus this is the first time in my life where I have pursued something I wanted on a whim. So fingers crossed... :-)
At this point I am just glad she isn't avoiding me and maybe we will get to know each other a little more in time.
Mikala had fun with her son Ayden and I am glad she has a kid her age. It was hard for Mikala to lose a sister and right now she needs friends but so do I. They played well and while this time I was a little reserved and shy I think we can all have a lot of fun together regardless of my romantic inclination.
A little saddened at the moment because I took Mikala to her mothers house so they can spend the morning together. It seems it has come to this just to make sure they have a relationship.Her work schedule is such that she can really only see her once a week reasonably. I feel like I have worked so hard to keep a good relationship between all of us that I have no choice but to be patient and flexible while things work themselves out...
Well this post was more a stream of consciousness than anything.. not winning an award anytime soon but I am also very tired and distracted by this girl that occupies my mind... Goodnight all.
~Michael
